..well, at this point i'm pissed..it's been what? 9 days since kelly's passing..at first i was in shock, as we all were..then i was just grief stricken and sad, very sad, as i'm sure we all were..but now i'm mad..mad at kelly for leaving us in this manner, mad at myself for not reaching out to him, and not seeing how much pain he was in..i guess all the signs were there?..mad at life in general for not understanding why things can go so bad when they seemingly don't have to..but out of this profound sadness of this situation and the anger i'm feeling, i promise myself i will try to bring more positive days to my life and all that i encounter..each and every day..what else can i do?..or any of us at this point..this has undoubtedly deeply affected us all..so even though it's too late and pointless at this point to say, i'll say something now i should have said earlier when maybe it would have counted..i love you kelly..not because we were close friends or knew each other really well..hell, i hardly even knew you at all..but simply because we should all feel that way towards each other in life..i will try to use your passing to remind me of this..each and every day..your life is over my friend, but it was not lived in vain..you positively affected many many people in your too few years..of that, i'm certain..your pain was deep, but now it's over..rest in peace my friend..i will not forget you..